Are You Always This Stupid?

[Trent Townsend]

...SCENE ONE...

All work and no play makes me a dull boy..
All work and no play makes me a dull boy..
All work and no play makes me a dull boy..
All work and no play makes me a dull boy!!


It's the kind of darkness I love. The kind of darkness that leaves you wondering what is lurking just around the upcoming corner. This is my city. This is my home. I smile to myself, even laughing a little bit. My mind danced from topic to topic, from Torrie to what Fort Knox had said earlier in the day. I raise my right hand to take a draw from the half hanging cigarette in my mouth. I then take a drink from the brown paper bag covering a bottle of Jack Daniels. I take in a deep breathe releasing it slowly and thinking...just wondering. Does he know how stupid he sounds when he opens his mouth? Does he know how ridiculous he looks when he struts around flaunting his money like it was a new born baby? Dark thoughts crossed my mind suddenly. Dark thoughts of hurting him till he is no longer able to compete in the Federation. Dark thoughts best left unspoken.

Live in a secret
Live in a lie
Live in a dark hole beneath the black sky
Live like a martyr and draw my last breath
Feel like an old man with a knife in my chest

Live like a transient
Live like a thief
Hide in a closet, grinding my teeth
Sit in a small room with the walls closing in
Open the shutters but everything's still dim


[Trent Townsend] "Don't think I don't know you. Don't think you can impress me with your many accomplishments as if they were accomplishments. They're not. You've done nothing impressive in your life and you cover it up with your money. It saddens me really. A typical specimen of man. You say you are going to be giving me your FULL attention, well what exactly is your full attention? Let's face it. You don't give anything your full attention because you don't have too. You buy your way to the top instead of working and it shows so plainly that it's sad. Don't think the rest of the locker room isn't looking at you and thinking the exact same thing I am thinking. Because they are. You're a joke. You'll be gone in three weeks.

I took another drag off my cigarette and threw it to the ground. I took another drink of my Jack and sighed. I closed my eyes for a moment, gathering my thoughts together and trying to make sense of them all. I had a lot on my mind. I didn't notice I had so much on my mind until I decided to take this dreadful walk.

[Trent Townsend] "The reason I know you've never earned a thing in your life is because it flows from you. You flaunt it. I know deep down inside you must have some sort of intelligence but you sure aren't using it or else you wouldn't ask me such a stupid question. Money didn't help you survive the wrestling hell you've been through. {laughing} What wrestling hell would that be? The time you fell down the steps and bumped your little head. Or the time you got flipped outside the ring and hurt your little finger? Which time are you referring too? You make me sick. You say you got where you are due to skill. Well let's look at what skill really means. The ability, coming from one's knowledge, practice, aptitude, etc., to do something well. Hmm, we both know that isn't true for you. You have no knowledge of wrestling. You may have practice at those half assed dojos you spoke of but that didn't help you much now did it? As for apititude and doing something well. That doesn't fit you either.

Payback
For all the things
I've done in my past

Payback
For everything
There are no take backs


I tossed the bottle to my left hearing the glass shatter on the sidewalk. I continued my walk, wanting to light up another cigarette but I didn't. I didn't have the time to slow down. I was too much lost in thought. Too determined.

[Trent Townsend] "Determination and heart are two things I can identify with. I see it in myself every time I look in the mirror. That's why I am so accustomed to it. That's why I know it's not in you and since you don't have it you won't be defeating me in the ring. I'm glad you are not considering buying me off because it wouldn't work. I am unphased by all that superficial bullshit. I came from a society that you live in now and I know it's nothing but a facade. Just like you really. I honestly can't believe some of the things coming out of your mouth. Are you always this stupid or are you making a special effort today?"

I sighed.

[Trent Townsend] "I know you are upset about losing the battle royal. I know that put quite a damper on your asspirations here. You say it only makes you want to get up and beat the hell out of the next guy. Too bad for you the next guy is me and the only one getting the hell beat out of them is you. I just want to break you. Like I feel this urge to break you down so badly that you won't be able to recover. I'll make damn sure of it too. I said you reminded me of my parents not because they worked hard for what they have, but because they use their skill of manipulation and stealing to get what they have. They worked off the backs of others instead of doing the work themselves. You see, that's you. You've let others pave the way for you so you can just gently walk right in and think you are something big and bad. Well, hate to break it to you, but you're not and you never will be. My mom may not love me but unlike you I don't need the support of parents to get what I want when I want it. I have my own support system. You know Knox, you shouldn't let your mind wander off too far because it really is too small to be left alone for too long.

Im not the reason
Its not my fault
Its not my problem
Im not the cause

Im not your scapegoat
Im not your god
Im not your martyr
I'd leave you all

Im not the reason - (Im not your scapegoat)
Its not my fault - (Im not your god)
Its not my problem - (Im not your martyr)
Im not the cause - (Id leave you all)

All work and no play makes me a dull boy


I stopped my walking and stood still for a moment. I looked left and then right to see no one was out tonight. They were all in their cozy homes watching movies and stuffing fucking junk food in their mouths, getting fatter and more stupid as the seconds pass. I took a few steps back and leaned against the brick wall of an abandoned building. I reached in my pocket and pulled out my cigarettes. I lit one, taking a drag and savoring the flavor.

[Trent Townsend] "You say that I'm a whiner. That I'm emo. Oh break my poor little heart. You just ripped me in two. I'm not whinning. I'm merely stating the truth. Just because you don't understand where I am coming from doesn't mean that I'm whinning. And for heaven sake's keep your damn cheese with your wine. I don't know what makes you so dumb but it really works Knox. I'm giving you a warning and you best take it seriously. I'm taking this match as serious as you are and there can be only one winner. That winner is going to be me whether you like it or not. This win is edged in stone and there's nothing you or anyone else can do about it.

I took another long drag off my cigarette and flicked it toward the camera. Blackout.

Feel like a clown without my funny nose
Walk to the window break it out with my fist
Jump from the sill and i'll plunge to my death
You can be selfish whatever ya think
Throw back my pills and take a sip of my drink

Walk under the clouds
Walk under the trees
Always a canopy covering me

Payback
For all the things
I've done in my past






....SCENE TWO....

I walked slowly up the steel steps to my apartment. A chill ran across my body and I couldn't shake it. Chill from what exactly? I didn't know. I walked up to the apartment door and opened it. Marie was asleep soundly on the sofa and Mike was watching a movie on the television. Torrie was in the kicthen washing dishes and getting ready to fix something for dinner. I let the door fall gently behind me and walked into the kitchen.

[Trent Townsend] "Hey."

Torrie looked up and smiled.

[Torrie] "Hey, where you been?"

[Trent Townsend] "I just took a little walk. Got some things off my mind. What are you doing?"

[Torrie] "Well I'm going to finish cleaning the kitchen then I'm going to fix something for dinner. What do you want?"

I jumped up on the counter to take a seat.

[Trent Townsend] "Doesn't matter. Hey you hear what Knox had to say by any chance?"

[Torrie] "I heard part of it. I laughed when he brought up the Twlight thing. Mike hasn't stopped watching that movie since you bought it last week.

I laughed in spite of myself. Torrie always found a way to make me laugh.

[Trent Townsend] "Alright, alright. He caught me on a few points but in all reality what he said didn't make much sense. He brought up my parents which I could be mad about I guess but I'll let it slide. Who cares what that dumbass says?

[Torrie] "Well if you want to get techinal about it you're the one who brought up your parents. He was just reacting to it.

[Trent Townsend] "Eh, maybe. He says I should get a therapist to work out all my little problems because he obviously thinks I have tons of them. Or he could just punch me in the mouth and get if over easier I guess. He won't have that chance though because when I step in the ring I'm going to be on him like flies on shit. I mean I don't think of him as a fool but what does my opinion mean compared to thousands of others?"

Torrie laughed.

[Torrie] "Just be careful out there. No getting hurt. I don't want to nurse you back to health.

[Trent Townsend] "Don't worry about me. I've got it all under control. He did make a useful comment though. He said I should get in the gym and get ready for the match and that is something I have been neglecting lately. I haven't worked out in over two weeks. I keep telling myself I'm going to and then I don't. It's the only useful information he provided. But gym or no gym the outcome is going to be the same. He'll use all his muscle power against me and I'll use my brain against him. But hey, brains aren't everything and to him their practically nothing.

[Torrie] "Don't underestimate him."

[Trent Townsend] "I'm not, I'm not. Seriously. He says I am going to be in the match of my life. I doubt it, but we can always hope can't we? I mean I've seen people like him before. I've had to pay admission to see people like him before but I've seen them. If you know what I mean.

I jumped off the counter and went over putting my hands around Torrie's hips and pulling her body close to mine.

[Torrie] "What do you want? I'm busy.

[Trent Townsend] "Just a kiss is all."

She gave me a sweet little peck and I let her go. I stayed in the kitchen though, watching her clean and getting ready to cook.

[Trent Townsend] "Just think after I win my debut match, I'll move up the ladder just a bit and maybe get some gold around my waist and then we'll get an increase in money flow and you know what that means. More candy for the taking. Really, I can't wait to fight Knox now. I'm pumped. I'm excited. I just wish Knox would slip into something a little more comfortable, you know, like a coma.

Torrie laughed again.

[Torrie] "Go relax. Dinner will be ready soon.

I licked my lips and nodded my head. I walked over to the living room and sat down on the edge of the couch and watched the last half of Twlight with Mike. Blackout.