How to Train Your Feelings : Chap 1

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Scene 1
Welcome to my Hell

The wind was wild on this cold New York night. The city lights were fogged as the cold air caused a dusting of smoke to cover them. The people below were doing their best to keep from freezing as they stood in line at a meet and greet for the WCF who would hold Slam from Madison Square Garden. The people outside were anxious however inside WCF's newest signee, Edwina Lockheart, sat in her dressing room panting as she attempted to catch her breath. She was not used to being the center of attention. Her anxiety rose as she felt the pressure of her newly chosen career path. Her idol, Kylie Moore, had just retired and she was looking for a reason to get out of this life. She couldn't let her newly found family down. She figeted with the black gloves on her hands as she attempted to drink some water, spilling it all over herself. She threw the water bottle across the room in a fit of rage.

Edwina Lockheart
SON OF A BITCH!

She could feel the words coursing through her body as they escaped her ruby lips. She was ready to debut but was not ready for the spotlight. She was not ready for people to be chanting her name. The fans could be heard louder as Kylie Moore walked into the room.

Kylie Moore
Edwina.. the fans are ready for you.

Edwina shook her head in disagreement as she pulled at her hair. The gloves caused a barrier as if to keep Edwina from tearing her dark hair to shreds. She screamed loudly.

Edwina Lockheart
Kylie, this is your world. This is Lilianna's world. This is Estrella's world. I am an outsider, a newcomer, an unknown.

Kylie nodded at Edwina.

Kylie Moore
Exactly. How can the Very Big Dumbasses get the upper hand on you when they don't know what you are capable of? I know what you can do. You want to feel? Step out there and address the fans... or stay back here and hide like a toddler running from the Boogeyman. Stay back here and be a walking lack of feeling and emotion. Stay back here and be a nobody... or come with me... and be amazing. Come with me and show the Very Big Idiots that YOU are better than them and you haven't even stepped into the ring yet. There is more hype on you than any debut in recent memory. You are in the third match of the night. You are above Scott Slayer. You get to team with a member of wrestling's first family, the Luiz's. You get to team with Mexico's sweetheart.

Edwina stopped Kylie in mid thought. Edwina didn't like the idea of teaming with the smallest member of the WCF's roster.

Edwina Lockheart
Nothing against Estrella. I am a fan of her work in the ring. The thing is we are facing two people who have a combined weight that is larger than that of a small truck. How are two people our size supposed to overcome that?

Kylie interrupted Edwina.

Kylie Moore
Alyssa and I did it. Lilianna and I did it. You can too.

Edwina shook her head side to side again.

Edwina Lockheart
I don't have the experiece of you all. Estrella is barely old enough to be on her own. She is a great competitor but they have burdened her with me.

Kylie placed a solitary finger on Edwina's lips.

Kylie Moore
You are not a burden to Estrella much like you are not a burden to Fourgasm. You are a great addition to us and a hell of an addition to the WCF. You are going to do big things in this company. You are going to start this week and propel your way to the top in no time. The thing is that can't happen until you put your big girl panties on and go out here with OUR fans.

Edwina's uncertainty twisted into a smirk. She removed the gloves and tossed them across the room. She touched Kylie's hand and noticed that Kylie's feelings were legit. Eveything she was saying was exactly how she felt. Edwina laughed like a maniac.

Edwina Lockheart
Perhaps you're right Kylie. Perhaps Estrella and I will be alright this week. Perhaps all things happen for a reason and the WCF is serving me VBS on a silver fucking platter. The best way for me to feel is to take these morons this week and crush them into a fine dust...

Edwina blew into her hand as a puff of dust flies out of it.

Edwina Lockheart
Then I will blow them.... not like that you pervs... out of my life. The only thing I am going to do to ANY dicks in that ring this week is kick them! I have learned from the best when it comes to that. Kylie and Lilianna have prepared me for this match up. They have made it so I have all the tools necessary to win this week. Estrella, girly, just sit back and enjoy your free win as I take over. I will allow the hatred I have for the world to course through my veins and give me the strength to put the Very Big not so Spaniards out of their misery. I mean, being like they are must be miserable. To be so big you can't walk. To be so big you can't go see a movie because the seats are too small. To be so big that they don't even know what their dicks look like. Hell, the only reason they know they still have dicks is Fourgasm keeps kicking them. VBS is not ready for the hell an emotionless fiend like myself can bring. What happens in life when you are abused all your life and basically left for dead by your biological...persons. I refuse to call them my parents. What happens when you are put into the system and bounced around from family to family and no one truly loves you? What happens when you step in the ring with someone of that disdain? When you step into the ring with someone who doesn't care if they live of die? You see, William and Ainsley have so much of a great outlook on life. They are oblvious to the fact that at any moment it can all come crashing down when they least expect it. I see the reality in life. I see mass shootings going on throughout the United States. I see celebrities being elected to public office and I realize that this is not a world I want to live in. This is not a world anyone should be happy in yet VBS are always laughing and cutting up. It is not a joke we are living in. It is some serious bullshit. VBS has yet to realize it but they are some of the saddest scum on Earth. Or maybe they realize it and they mask their sadness with fat and penis jokes. Maybe they are so fat because they eat to hide their pain. Maybe they are just as sad as their lives are but they want everyone to be happy. I mean many people are the light in people's lives well before they take their own lives. William, Ainsley, as someone who has survived a few suicide attempts let me tell you, it is not worth it. You have a reason to live. Granted that reason isn't wrestling because you are a bigger joke in the ring than Jayson Price is to Corey Black. You are a bigger punchline than the ending of your favorite comedian's most well known joke. You are a bigger bust than the Quarterback that came into the professional ranks highly touted only to blow his knee out in game one. You are nothing and Estrella and I will prove that this week.

Kylie jumped up and down in joy as Edwina, the monster she had created, kept speaking.

Edwina Lockheart
You are comic relief to hide the pain of the world. You are on the card merely to get people to laugh. Much like Teo Blaze and his Must see TV shit, you are simply a gimmick. The only difference is Teo is actually talented. This week on Slam you will fall down on your fat asses so fast you will wonder what hit you. As Lilianna cheers from her hospital bed I will get one of you to lay down for a three count. I will make the lives of everyone in the WCF a living hell as I begin to feel again. As I begin to become human once more. The only difference is I won't accept failure. I won't accept pain. I will only accept winning and it all begins this week with the former tag team champions. The ones who don't deserve to be mentioned alongside my name. The ones who were transitional champions for Bonnie Blue and David Sanchez. The Very Big Supremacists couldn't start a fire with gasoline and mathes how in the fuck are they going to defeat me and Estrella Luiz? A true luchadora. Someone who understands that they are human. Estrella and I are half human and half machine this week as she is the heart and I am the muscle. We will take VBS and make them our bitches. Estrella and I are not scared this week, VBS, but you better be. They say we fear that which we do not understand. So basically VBS fears everything? The way they ramble on and on each and every week you would think they don't understand a damn thing. I think this was brought on by their parents constantly building them up like they were something special. VBS is that kid on the baseball team that expects a participation trophy. I am like that hard ass coach that refuses to give them something simply for showing up. I didn't get a contract by showing up and demanding one. I grasped my opportunity through hard work. I got signed as a legend of this business and of this company, Kylie Moore, stepped away. She worked with me and got me good enough to debut. Good enough to beat VBS. The scary thought for each and everyone of you to think about is I am only going to get better. While the Stephen Singh's and James Wolf's continue to age I will be able to take their places. I don't care who you put in front of me. I don't care if it is Noble Savage or even the All Father himself, I will leave it all in the ring as I continue to learn how to wrestle...

She smiled and laughed like a maniac again.

Edwina Lockheart
And continue to learn how to feel. Very Big Whatever the fuck you claim to be. Prepare for a cold hearted beating. Prepare...for Edwina Lockheart's feelings.


Edwina made it to her feet and laughed as she and Kylie Moore walked out of the door and were gladly welcomed by the fans. The camera panned in on Edwina's gloves as the scene faded to black.

THE END

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Notes : First RP as Edwina. I am really feeling this character. Hope you enjoy and good lukc VBS.