Post by Kevin Bishop on Jan 13, 2017 13:41:28 GMT -5
Hello darkness… My old friend…
“The bombing rocked us to the very core of our Brotherhood… My Brotherhood…”
I’ve come to talk with you again…
“Karma left me in a fit of rage, because I am trying to look out for her well being…”
Because a vision softly creeping…
“There’s a darker cloud coming… This is only the beginning…”
Left its seeds while I was sleeping…
“Her words stayed with me even after she stormed out…”
And the vision that was planted in my brain…
“INTO that piece of shits arms…”
Still remains…
“Her past with him creeps up in the back of my mind…”
Within the sound of silence…
“Sitting here alone in my room… In our marital bed… The silence haunts me…”
In restless dreams I walked alone…
“A nights slumber doesn’t muffle the whispers…”
Narrow streets of cobblestone…
“A broken road filled with dreams once forgotten for the two of us…”
‘Neath the halo of a street lamp…
“Simple lights can’t even stay for long with in my own black hole of despair…”
I turned my collar to the cold and damp…
“Her heart comes across as cold as a winter’s beckoning…”
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light…
“I see her… Her all alone in a ran down hotel room… With that BASTARD…”
That split the night…
“Us lying cities apart… Our hearts couldn’t be so distant through it all…”
And touched the sound of silence…
“Just one whisper from her voice could put my mind at ease… Diminish the fear that binds me…”
And in the naked light I saw…
“Chilled to the bone, my skin wants to rip away from its self…”
Ten thousand people maybe more…
“My brothers and sisters… My Brotherhood grows in numbers and they want my vision to be true…”
People talking without speaking…
“Their words funnel through me…”
People hearing without listening…
“Deaf ears being shared all around…”
People writing songs that voices never shared…
“Originality is without fault… Because imaginations are raped…”
No ONE dared…
“Too afraid to stand tall after the pain… That’s the truth of it all…”
Disturb the sound of silence…
“I’m painted as a monster even to my love…”
FOOLS, I said you do not know…
“She’s inching herself away, no matter the attempts I make…”
Silence like a cancer grows…
“One returned phone call… One sentence could lift my spirits… Instead of this crippling solidarity that tears me up inside…”
Hear my words that I might teach you…
“She use to come to ME for advice… She looked to me for direction…”
Take my arms that I might reach you…
“Turning away has become her norm… No longer the woman who completed me…”
But my words like silent raindrops fell…
“KARMA, why must my words imprison me?”
And echoed in the wells of silence…
“My love… We shared this darkness once before, but now it’s come and gone…”
And the people bowed and prayed…
“We were an example of a surreal power couple… We were a gold standard… A bench mark…”
To the neon god they made…
“The limelight is what tears us apart? Our flaws exposed for the world to see… Is that what ails you?”
And the sign flashed out its warning…
“The pressures were there all along and I attempted to steer clear… Keep the boat aligned with the sexton…”
In the words that it was forming…
“Warning signs were delivered from all those who were in ear shot…”
And the sign said The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls…
“My message was declared false… Her vision of me became smeared… I couldn’t change it in a day…”
And tenement halls…
“Tears couldn’t convey true emotion… I was seen as heartless too many times…”
And whispered in the sound of silence…
“Now that she has sits on the fence… Teetering… This silence I wallow in reminds me of a man… A man that I don’t have a choice against becoming once more…”
The song fades away and I’m left staring up at the farm house ceiling, which creaks with the cold wind blowing outside. The ceiling’s off white paint looks to be slightly chipping away after every house settling sound.
“I remember what is was like to stand in the darkness looking into the light… That light that was warm to the touch, but burned when gazed upon for too long… Blindness didn’t bother me, it simply hid the dangers that crept around each corner…”
The light outside slowly starts to diminish and I can see a shadow of a tree branch slowly work its way up the wall beside me.
“Obviously the events that have occurred as of late has brought forth a dark cloud that I’m not going to easily be able to shake…”
The room grows even darker…
“My world… The one that I have built around me and my Brotherhood… I’m the one who has to keep our shit together… I don’t lean on anyone… What leader can? They claim that the bravest of leaders see their own flaws and they embrace them… I found it hard to do that… The cameras follow me through all the high times and low… They shot the first chink in the chain that is my marriage… For all the eyes of this world to see… I lay here trying to sift through it all and all I want is my wife to lay here next to me…”
Words whispered in the air, remind me of my fate that is so to be…
“I failed her… I failed my brothers… I failed to lead… If this has to be my Swan Song then so be it… If this mad man who on paper has seemingly been cut from the same cloth as me, is the one who ends me… Well, let it be…”
Haunting… I can sense the uneasiness grow within this room of mine…
“Let it be, because to be destroyed by a man with a long list of accomplishments as this man… I guess I could go out as another victim of a long list of victims that NVL has collected… NVL isn’t a loyalist… He has proven that by overthrowing his previous ‘GOD’ in Oblivion… NVL is a Judas… A man who is the first to turn that knife in the back of a man he respects…”
The very idea of betrayal steals the breath from me…
“I look at all of my brothers and I couldn’t begin to imagine one of them wanting to hang me high and watch me flail for their own personal pleasure… Their own kicks at my expense… Loyalty is something that can’t truly be taught… NVL you showed your true colors in the past and as I stand in the same ring with you… There’s not going to be a second of me letting down my guard with you… Do I see this match as a way for me to continue to make a name for myself? Of course, but that’s not what is going to drive me to defeat you… I have enough hate… Enough rage built up inside of me… That the moment you have me down and out, I’m going to come back like I’ve been risen from the dead…”
Jesus…
“Resurrection brought forth by months of standing for my Brotherhood and taking beatings that will not let off… Every lose that my brothers and I take… I take it on the chin… Every time we are called some pointless cult that forces followers to drink the koolaid…”
A long awaited slumber looks to find its footing…
“I’m not going to lie… I’m tired… I’m tired of the bullshit that we have to climb through to be more than what we are… My brothers fight and they fight and they fight… Still they are disrespected… They stand strong in their morals and they stand strong in their faith… It’s never enough… We teetered between being over and being under the thumb of Seth Lerch… It could all go back to my calling out of Seth’s leadership in the very beginning… My brothers could still be paying for my sins…”
One single cry in the night… I feel it belongs to her…
“I say it is enough for them to be living in my shadow… So if NVL thinks he can end me… If he thinks he can take this pain away… Then he better be ready to fight a man who is struggling with the true reason to stay… To stay focused… To stay motivated… To stay sane… To stay HUMAN…”
My eyes are taken straight to the bedroom door as it creaks to life…
“I come to XIII… Ready to DIE, if that is what it’ll take to fix the things that have destroyed my world… A darker cloud is coming…”
The door springs open and in walks Karma with tears in her eyes… I hold myself back from embracing her…
“Something is wrong… Kevin… I have lost them…”
Them? I sit up in bed and Karma practically falls into my arms…
“My pills… My pills are missing!”
Karma’s tears begin to frantically leave her face and I’m hardly able to get a word in.
“Honey…”
Karma grabs me by the shirt and pushes me away.
“I don’t know where they are! I fear… I fear for all of those unknowing women… I fear for your brothers… I fear for you…”
The tears begin to come out a little red…
“We can find your pills… Let’s just calm it down… I’ll just get the doctor on the phone and I’ll see what he can do…”
Karma smacks me across the face and it takes everything inside of me to hold myself back… But I know this isn’t her true nature…
“NO! I need this! XIII is upon us and the woman I am right now… The monster you see before you… I’ve only tasted this rage a few times recently… And the visions I have seen as of late are starting to become even clearer… There’s a dark cloud coming… This is only the beginning… Can’t you see? I am the dark cloud…”
Karma goes to walk away and I spring to life up onto my feet. I reach for her and she rips her arm away.
“Don’t try to stop me, Kevin… This is only the beginning…”
Karma leaves me once again… Heart in my hand… My jaw on the floor… Tears stinging in my eyes… What has happened to my wife? What is this rage she speaks of dealing with recently? How could my ship gone so awry?
There is a harbinger of death standing at my door step… His name is Nathan Von Liebert… Hell or high water… I either die at XIII or I survive to see my whole world burn before my eyes… Either way… What do I have to really lose?
