Post by TheButcher on Aug 23, 2016 15:25:56 GMT -5
Listen.. I am a very reasonable person, and I am in no way a whiner, complainer, angry, emotional, etc.
But, I believe myself as a 'perfectionist' and views of myself wanting to do the best, I definitely will view things with a different light. Though, I did come across as an asshole, dick, bitch, etc. I forgot the most important rule here:
This is for FUN!
In addition, we are all unique and all have our strengths and weaknesses. So, what was the best the best for me to do?
Step back, take all all the facts, observations, criticisms, opinions, and then see, what am I (Ryan) doing wrong?
And, I found out what that was... Obviously, I, myself, MADE WCF like it was 'work.' So, that right there.. Just made me uptight, and not relaxed.
Now, I'm thinking, "Ryan, you dumbass! This is fun shit! You are doing what you enjoy and love as a hobby! And, you have some cool ass people that you have met. So..chill...the fuck...out!"
I am the sole person to blame.. I didn't just relax, go with the flow, have fun, realize it's not personal, or some brain surgery!
I think the last week with the insomnia and my fiance's surgery really 'Amped' up that edginess... And, I didn't properly 'relax' and assess what WCF is..
So, I did not properly relax and chill, but also... Like a HUGE asshole, acted like a total fool in front of you all.
I assure you all, I'm not bi-polar, have anger management, or a bitch & moaner
I AM just a human being, like you all, that wants to have fun, relax, and do what I love...e-fedding!!
So, as a human being, I will make mistakes, but.. The big thing is ...I 100% learned from it. I mean, Jesus.. I lost to someone who had a better RP than me. So, what? That won't end the world, or cause some major issue in my life!
So... I certainly learned a lesson about MYSELF, and that is.. I joined WCF to have fun and have a creative distraction FROM real-life throughout the week..
So, thank you all for understanding, but also realizing that you still learn about yourself everyday.
So, Lilith..again congrats! (Really!!)
Sarah, you wrote the best you could, and I have no issue with it.. (The issue was with me.)
And, Seth.. Thank you for being reasonable, but also making me realize after just 3 months of WCF e-fedding, after a 15 year break, that I need to just chill the fuck out.. And, you know what?
I am lucky to be among very talented vets and new talent, from all walks of life, and from all over this world. This IS MY efed home, and maybe this is what I needed in my own personal life. Because, I haven't even 'relaxed' in my own life.
So, this unnessary debacle I caused, was actually a blessing in disguise for myself... In the form of, that not every can be perfect, and I should and must find ways to 'relax' in my life.. (And, not just here!)
Thank you all!
And, the other gentlemen that are in the Alpha Title match with me, Good luck, have fun, give it hell, let's out on a good show, and may the best man win!
The same goes for everyone at the PPV!
P.S. if you have any questions/concerns or just want to cuss me out for acting like an asshole, my PMs are open (and I'll be just fine to address anything with anyone!
)
Thanks for hearing me out, and I hope there is no hard feelings. I truly mean that to everyone.
But, I believe myself as a 'perfectionist' and views of myself wanting to do the best, I definitely will view things with a different light. Though, I did come across as an asshole, dick, bitch, etc. I forgot the most important rule here:
This is for FUN!
In addition, we are all unique and all have our strengths and weaknesses. So, what was the best the best for me to do?
Step back, take all all the facts, observations, criticisms, opinions, and then see, what am I (Ryan) doing wrong?
And, I found out what that was... Obviously, I, myself, MADE WCF like it was 'work.' So, that right there.. Just made me uptight, and not relaxed.
Now, I'm thinking, "Ryan, you dumbass! This is fun shit! You are doing what you enjoy and love as a hobby! And, you have some cool ass people that you have met. So..chill...the fuck...out!"
I am the sole person to blame.. I didn't just relax, go with the flow, have fun, realize it's not personal, or some brain surgery!
I think the last week with the insomnia and my fiance's surgery really 'Amped' up that edginess... And, I didn't properly 'relax' and assess what WCF is..
So, I did not properly relax and chill, but also... Like a HUGE asshole, acted like a total fool in front of you all.
I assure you all, I'm not bi-polar, have anger management, or a bitch & moaner
I AM just a human being, like you all, that wants to have fun, relax, and do what I love...e-fedding!!
So, as a human being, I will make mistakes, but.. The big thing is ...I 100% learned from it. I mean, Jesus.. I lost to someone who had a better RP than me. So, what? That won't end the world, or cause some major issue in my life!
So... I certainly learned a lesson about MYSELF, and that is.. I joined WCF to have fun and have a creative distraction FROM real-life throughout the week..
So, thank you all for understanding, but also realizing that you still learn about yourself everyday.
So, Lilith..again congrats! (Really!!)
Sarah, you wrote the best you could, and I have no issue with it.. (The issue was with me.)
And, Seth.. Thank you for being reasonable, but also making me realize after just 3 months of WCF e-fedding, after a 15 year break, that I need to just chill the fuck out.. And, you know what?
I am lucky to be among very talented vets and new talent, from all walks of life, and from all over this world. This IS MY efed home, and maybe this is what I needed in my own personal life. Because, I haven't even 'relaxed' in my own life.
So, this unnessary debacle I caused, was actually a blessing in disguise for myself... In the form of, that not every can be perfect, and I should and must find ways to 'relax' in my life.. (And, not just here!)
Thank you all!
And, the other gentlemen that are in the Alpha Title match with me, Good luck, have fun, give it hell, let's out on a good show, and may the best man win!
The same goes for everyone at the PPV!
P.S. if you have any questions/concerns or just want to cuss me out for acting like an asshole, my PMs are open (and I'll be just fine to address anything with anyone!
)Thanks for hearing me out, and I hope there is no hard feelings. I truly mean that to everyone.
