Post by Deleted on Aug 21, 2016 13:16:20 GMT -5
I want to apologize for the way I've acted in the past toward not only the genuine people here but also the WCF itself. At the core of everything I've done lately is a love for WCF and what WCF has done for me, even if this seems hard to believe. I've come to love the core community of WCF and I want to leave a good, lasting impression on the people who made WCF what it is today and helped me get my foot in the door and go from writing the kind of shitty RPs that this place has seen a lot of to the kind of RPs that makes my mark on a championship tournament against an established legend in this company. WCF has been a positive influence on my life even outside of writing. It's inspired me to become a better person by embracing my Nordic heritage, being more creative, and looking to build a better future for the people I call my friends.
I would like to think that the core people who made WCF what it is today are my friends, but I know I've done a lot of things to make them see me in a negative light. First was the way my character acted and my lack of assurance that myself and my character are two separate entities entirely. I don't want to be remembered as that "piece of shit" racist, homophobe, Islamaphobe, sexist, or whatever else people like to throw around nowadays.
I also don't want to be remembered as anyone who's trying to hurt the WCF. When WCF shut down, I was furious. It made me act in a way I'm not proud of. I was actively hunting down new members who I didn't think deserved to be here or were hurting the fed with their contributions when really I was the one chasing off the future of the company. I was very paranoid about the prospect of those who had left looking to continue to cause trouble to the fed, and while I found out I wasn't entirely off base there, it was absolutely wrong of me to look to take up the responsibility of being judge, jury, and executioner all by myself when this site has designated moderators and such who are more than capable of taking care of things themselves. I especially apologize to Seth because he was paying for the ads that brought in the people I was making feel unwelcome.
I don't make the best choices of words and I don't filter myself like I should. People make mistakes and I'm no exception, but for a while I wasn't learning from my mistakes and that was making me a harmful person to this community. I really want to change the way people see me from now on by learning from mistakes, being a positive contributing member to this community, and helping WCF grow and build a future for itself and the people that I respect as writers and OOC human beings.
I would like to think that the core people who made WCF what it is today are my friends, but I know I've done a lot of things to make them see me in a negative light. First was the way my character acted and my lack of assurance that myself and my character are two separate entities entirely. I don't want to be remembered as that "piece of shit" racist, homophobe, Islamaphobe, sexist, or whatever else people like to throw around nowadays.
I also don't want to be remembered as anyone who's trying to hurt the WCF. When WCF shut down, I was furious. It made me act in a way I'm not proud of. I was actively hunting down new members who I didn't think deserved to be here or were hurting the fed with their contributions when really I was the one chasing off the future of the company. I was very paranoid about the prospect of those who had left looking to continue to cause trouble to the fed, and while I found out I wasn't entirely off base there, it was absolutely wrong of me to look to take up the responsibility of being judge, jury, and executioner all by myself when this site has designated moderators and such who are more than capable of taking care of things themselves. I especially apologize to Seth because he was paying for the ads that brought in the people I was making feel unwelcome.
I don't make the best choices of words and I don't filter myself like I should. People make mistakes and I'm no exception, but for a while I wasn't learning from my mistakes and that was making me a harmful person to this community. I really want to change the way people see me from now on by learning from mistakes, being a positive contributing member to this community, and helping WCF grow and build a future for itself and the people that I respect as writers and OOC human beings.
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