Huge Apology to All

[TheButcher]

I should've known that my insomnia and current RL stress at an all-time high was a recipe for disaster.

So, I do apologize to everyone that witnessed my outburst, as that is uncharacteristic of myself. (I swear I'm not bi-polar, or have any other mental disease.. lol)

As Doc stated, and he is right, insomnia and high stress level are a 'bitch' and it can effect you majorly.

So, Cash, CD, Lilith, Sarah, etc. and anyone else I missed... My sincere apologies to each one of you.

After sleeping, and assessing my behavior and also taking the critiques to heart about my RP, I believe I DO have a lot to offer WCF for a long-time. But, in addition, I must balance my life appropriately as well.

So, that includes that I do not spend as much time on the Internet boards, as my character does have the built-in heat, but rather take all of the opinions and feedback to heart and develop better RPs. The RPs I know I'm capable in writing.

Now, this last RP, I know it was not really good, and I wasn't sure if I'd be able to RP, so I threw one together fast so I didn't 'no show.' But, regardless, I know what I need to do to make my RP of better quality. So, thank you for the feedback, though I 'snapped'..

So, continuing forward, I will be here and active, but MOSTLY just focus on my RPs so my character becomes better, and has a better story to tell. And, not so much time on IC boards.

Thank you all for understanding, and again my apologies.

[Lilith]

Aug 20, 2016 11:52:08 GMT -5 TheButcher said:

I should've known that my insomnia and current RL stress at an all-time high was a recipe for disaster.

So, I do apologize to everyone that witnessed my outburst, as that is uncharacteristic of myself. (I swear I'm not bi-polar, or have any other mental disease.. lol)

As Doc stated, and he is right, insomnia and high stress level are a 'bitch' and it can effect you majorly.

So, Cash, CD, Lilith, Sarah, etc. and anyone else I missed... My sincere apologies to each one of you.

After sleeping, and assessing my behavior and also taking the critiques to heart about my RP, I believe I DO have a lot to offer WCF for a long-time. But, in addition, I must balance my life appropriately as well.

So, that includes that I do not spend as much time on the Internet boards, as my character does have the built-in heat, but rather take all of the opinions and feedback to heart and develop better RPs. The RPs I know I'm capable in writing.

Now, this last RP, I know it was not really good, and I wasn't sure if I'd be able to RP, so I threw one together fast so I didn't 'no show.' But, regardless, I know what I need to do to make my RP of better quality. So, thank you for the feedback, though I 'snapped'..

So, continuing forward, I will be here and active, but MOSTLY just focus on my RPs so my character becomes better, and has a better story to tell. And, not so much time on IC boards.

Thank you all for understanding, and again my apologies.

You don't need to apologise. Just listen to what these people said and don't take stuff to heart like I said. These guys have been in WCF for years so if they see newbies coming in with bad attitudes they'll get eaten alive if they don't have thick skin. Solution: Be calm, cool and don't take things to heart. Problem solved 

[TheButcher]

I do have a thick skin.. Just, my guard was down because of insomnia and high stress level.. Which, was not the ideal mix.

But, yes..I did have to have to apologize, and man-up to my mistake.

[Chief Tom-O-Hawk]

She's right (had to choke that one out), but there is he internet belt, and that one you should be a shoe in for with all the board heat you can produce. But otherwise, just start with a basic idea for a roleplay and let it grow day by day until you get something you like.

Most of my roleplays are slapped together in a couple of hours, but I made no secret about it that This is my relaxation time and I'm not going to do this competitively like I did years ago. A Tomohawk post I did a few weeks ago I did in the style I used to, and when it was done and I read it on the boards made me wonder why I'm not writing fantasy based thrillers for a living. I do this now to relax and unwind. I would probably hate writing if I had to do it for my paychecks.

And that's the point. You shouldn't have to be working to do this. It should be inspired and fun or at least a temporary take back from daily life. Enjoy your writing first and foremost. But I stick to what I said in your retirement thread. Go to Black Library and start finding the Chronicles of Malus Darkblade series and reading them. Great ideas in those books that would fit particularly well with Baron Massaker.

[TheButcher]

Good advice, and I like your insights and suggestions.

Thank you... (But, I do have that special 'surprise' ancestor that I am revealing for the PPV RP.)

[AdamYoung]

[TheButcher]

[AdamYoung]