Post by Lilith on Mar 25, 2016 19:32:19 GMT -5
Your life is like a box of crayons which color your world. Constantly color your picture gray, and your picture will always be bleak. Try adding some brightness to your picture… and stand back and watch as those around you become consumed with darkness and try and destroy everything that you are and hope to be.
Los Angeles, California… The Angels... you’d really think a name like that would mean the place was almost heavenly, wouldn’t you? How can a place have such a name and yet be filled up to the brim with nothing but wickedness.
You know what I see when I look around out here? I see nothing but pain. Pain, disease… suffering. People living on the streets, some even DYING out there all alone with no one to care about them. This is no heavenly place. This is literally hell on earth and every damn day I wake up here just trying to survive. But I grow so tired of it.
I tried to be happy, I tried to be bright… colorful… full of the hope for a better tomorrow… but now I realize that will never come. It won’t. You know why? Because ever since I won that god damn belt all I have done is curse myself.
I thought he was dead.
I thought he was GONE!!!
But no, I was wrong. WHY DID I HAVE TO BE SO WRONG?!! He has come back and he will not stop haunting me until he has done what he promised to do… and that is to kill me, to kill Katherine Phoenix.
Oblivion, The Monster… the greatest Hardcore Champion in WCF history… is back. And he will not stop, he will not go away until he has my blood all over his hands. He wants to end me, to destroy me, to crush me up in between his giant hands and scatter my ashes before him. And you know what the most worrying thing is? I fear that this time he will actually do it. For the first time in my life I am scared and I do not like this feeling.
Sure I’ve already beaten him once before… but was it luck? Was it a fluke?! Would I even be standing here today if Morrigana, his daughter, hadn’t done what she did. After all it wasn't me who ended him, it was her. I stood there and watched as she pushed him down into his doom and then I saw him fry… the sights, the sounds… the smells… they still haunt me to this very day.
I thought he was gone…
THEY TOLD ME HE WAS GONE!!!
Jared, Thursday… #BeachKrew… they said he died that night. That Morrigana had killed him. They told me that I didn’t need to worry about anything anymore… I WATCHED HIS FUNERAL!!!
...it was beautiful.
But he’s back, like some horror movie villain he will not stay down… he just keeps getting back up onto his feet and coming straight back after me.
I beat ZMAC… I did. I did it all by myself. I won myself a title, a title which WASNT handed down to me by Sarah Twilight. In that moment I was happier than I had been for a long long time. As I stood up and was announced the winner, the new Hardcore Champion… I thought things were suddenly going to get better for me. I thought my life was FINALLY, after all these years, actually going to amount to something... to MEAN something. And then it all changed. Just like that.
Oblivion came on the screen and a FREEZING cold chill ran down my spine.
He couldn’t stand me being happy… he couldn’t stand me holding the belt he still considers to be his even though it has MY name on the little name plate thinggy, not his. He was back from the dead, from the grave… literally, I just didn’t want to believe it.
I laughed at him… I LAUGHED AT OBLIVION!!! I made him out to be a joke, a clown… a nae nae dancing fool. I poked and prodded at him and practically sealed my own damn fate.
Why couldn't I just keep my mouth shut?! Just this one time... why couldn't I just shut the hell up?! Yeah its not bad enough that a 6'5", 325 pound monster has a taste for my blood and wants to do nothing more than KILL ME!!! I have to go and make fun of him and wind him up to breaking point because I’m an annoying little troll bitch!
This is the man who……. raped me. Forcefully bent me over and put himself all over me… ALL OVER ME!!! And I couldn’t do a damn thing about it. I took so many showers after he did that to me. SO MANY SHOWERS! But I just couldn’t make myself feel clean no matter how hard i scrubbed. I still have nightmares about that day… the day the monster made me his bitch. I wake up screaming… I’ve ripped my bedsheets from clawing at them so hard during my night terrors. I can't… handle... thinking about it. It sends shivers down my spine and makes me feel gross, dirty… revolting.
Oblivion made me his bitch… and I’m scared… I’m terrified of what he’s going to do next. I fear the unknown.
Why did I laugh at him? WHY?!!
Things weren't always this way between us… three long years I've known this man, this machine. I remember when I first came into the WCF, I was a bright eyed rookie and full of hope, wonder and excitement. Sarah Twilight was the World Champion and as any rookie would, I looked up to her. I idolized her. I watched a bunch of her matches and even tried to fight like her, like the world champion. But was she happy with that? Did she like that I looked up to her and dreamed of one day being just as great as her?
No, of course not.
Twilight Sparkles hated me, still does. She pushed me down and tried to destroy me my first week of being in the WCF.
I was alone, just like I am now… but back then I didn't handle loneliness as well as I do now.
I figured… you know what? If I just keep my head down and fight the fight I will prove myself and maybe even win over some fans in the meantime.
That didn't happen. The WCF Galaxy hated me just like they hate me now. They hurt me, real bad…
But then I met him, Oblivion, The Monster. But where other people saw him and ran in fear, I never did. Not even once. You know why? Because deep behind the mask, and the blood and gore… I saw something no one else saw. Something no else even bothered to try and see.
Deep inside, Oblivion was just like me. He was the peanut butter to my jelly. In many ways I saw him as family, he was like a father figure to me.
See what you have to realize is, deep inside, behind all his anger and frustrations, Oblivion was just a man whose only true desire was to make some friends and maybe even find someone to love him, genuinely care about him. I saw myself in that monster and for that reason I instantly took a liking to him. I cared about him… hell maybe even some part of me even loved him.
Sure I would laugh and joke and play around with him… I’d call him a weak peanut bitch and wind him up a bit… but I did it out of love, not hate. I thought he knew I was joking all those times, I thought he knew how much I adored him… but all he ended up doing was breaking my heart.
Despite it all… after everything we’d been through, I still thought that maybe, just maybe things would one day get better for us. But then I saw it…
Oblivion and Bonnie Blue?!! BONNIE BLUE?!!
That, Oblivion… THAT was going too far. I can handle you trying to kill me, hell I can maybe even handle you raping me… but what I can not, will not and never will tolerate is you befriending HER over me!
ME!!!!!!!!!!!
Kat!!!!!!!
What makes her so special, huh?! What did she ever do for you! Throughout all these years it was me who stood by you… ME!!! I mean sure we had our rough patches where we tried to kill each other… but that was all part of the fun, right? It was all part of the game. We’d laugh, we’d try and kill each other… and then afterwards we’d laugh some more. But not now, Oblivion… not anymore. NOT… ANY… MORE!!!
Befriending that… WITCH is literally the worst thing you could ever do to me, Oblivion and I will not stand for it! I WILL NOT!!! You want to say you’re going to kill me? You want to murder your old friend, Kat?! Let me get make one thing crystal clear for you, Oblivion… I know who you are, I know what you’re capable of and I know that you do not care about me. You never have have you?! But if you think I am going to put a gun in YOUR hand and just wait for you to pull the trigger you can think again, old friend.
This Sunday, Oblivion… you better bring your all. You better bring some knives, some guns, some explosives… BRING YOUR WHORE BONNIE BLUE!!! Because this battle is only just beginning and I guarantee you, Monster… at the end of this night… NEITHER of us will be left standing. You can drag me down to the depths of hell, but I will grab you around your throat… and drag you down with me.
This Sunday might very well be the day Katherine Phoenix dies… but if you think for one minute, one second that I will not take you down with me… you can think again!
But Oblivion, Explosion will not be the end for us… it will only be the beginning and I am soooooo excited to see what the future holds for us both.
See you soon.
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Los Angeles, California… The Angels... you’d really think a name like that would mean the place was almost heavenly, wouldn’t you? How can a place have such a name and yet be filled up to the brim with nothing but wickedness.
You know what I see when I look around out here? I see nothing but pain. Pain, disease… suffering. People living on the streets, some even DYING out there all alone with no one to care about them. This is no heavenly place. This is literally hell on earth and every damn day I wake up here just trying to survive. But I grow so tired of it.
I tried to be happy, I tried to be bright… colorful… full of the hope for a better tomorrow… but now I realize that will never come. It won’t. You know why? Because ever since I won that god damn belt all I have done is curse myself.
I thought he was dead.
I thought he was GONE!!!
But no, I was wrong. WHY DID I HAVE TO BE SO WRONG?!! He has come back and he will not stop haunting me until he has done what he promised to do… and that is to kill me, to kill Katherine Phoenix.
Oblivion, The Monster… the greatest Hardcore Champion in WCF history… is back. And he will not stop, he will not go away until he has my blood all over his hands. He wants to end me, to destroy me, to crush me up in between his giant hands and scatter my ashes before him. And you know what the most worrying thing is? I fear that this time he will actually do it. For the first time in my life I am scared and I do not like this feeling.
Sure I’ve already beaten him once before… but was it luck? Was it a fluke?! Would I even be standing here today if Morrigana, his daughter, hadn’t done what she did. After all it wasn't me who ended him, it was her. I stood there and watched as she pushed him down into his doom and then I saw him fry… the sights, the sounds… the smells… they still haunt me to this very day.
I thought he was gone…
THEY TOLD ME HE WAS GONE!!!
Jared, Thursday… #BeachKrew… they said he died that night. That Morrigana had killed him. They told me that I didn’t need to worry about anything anymore… I WATCHED HIS FUNERAL!!!
...it was beautiful.
But he’s back, like some horror movie villain he will not stay down… he just keeps getting back up onto his feet and coming straight back after me.
I beat ZMAC… I did. I did it all by myself. I won myself a title, a title which WASNT handed down to me by Sarah Twilight. In that moment I was happier than I had been for a long long time. As I stood up and was announced the winner, the new Hardcore Champion… I thought things were suddenly going to get better for me. I thought my life was FINALLY, after all these years, actually going to amount to something... to MEAN something. And then it all changed. Just like that.
Oblivion came on the screen and a FREEZING cold chill ran down my spine.
He couldn’t stand me being happy… he couldn’t stand me holding the belt he still considers to be his even though it has MY name on the little name plate thinggy, not his. He was back from the dead, from the grave… literally, I just didn’t want to believe it.
I laughed at him… I LAUGHED AT OBLIVION!!! I made him out to be a joke, a clown… a nae nae dancing fool. I poked and prodded at him and practically sealed my own damn fate.
Why couldn't I just keep my mouth shut?! Just this one time... why couldn't I just shut the hell up?! Yeah its not bad enough that a 6'5", 325 pound monster has a taste for my blood and wants to do nothing more than KILL ME!!! I have to go and make fun of him and wind him up to breaking point because I’m an annoying little troll bitch!
This is the man who……. raped me. Forcefully bent me over and put himself all over me… ALL OVER ME!!! And I couldn’t do a damn thing about it. I took so many showers after he did that to me. SO MANY SHOWERS! But I just couldn’t make myself feel clean no matter how hard i scrubbed. I still have nightmares about that day… the day the monster made me his bitch. I wake up screaming… I’ve ripped my bedsheets from clawing at them so hard during my night terrors. I can't… handle... thinking about it. It sends shivers down my spine and makes me feel gross, dirty… revolting.
Oblivion made me his bitch… and I’m scared… I’m terrified of what he’s going to do next. I fear the unknown.
Why did I laugh at him? WHY?!!
Things weren't always this way between us… three long years I've known this man, this machine. I remember when I first came into the WCF, I was a bright eyed rookie and full of hope, wonder and excitement. Sarah Twilight was the World Champion and as any rookie would, I looked up to her. I idolized her. I watched a bunch of her matches and even tried to fight like her, like the world champion. But was she happy with that? Did she like that I looked up to her and dreamed of one day being just as great as her?
No, of course not.
Twilight Sparkles hated me, still does. She pushed me down and tried to destroy me my first week of being in the WCF.
I was alone, just like I am now… but back then I didn't handle loneliness as well as I do now.
I figured… you know what? If I just keep my head down and fight the fight I will prove myself and maybe even win over some fans in the meantime.
That didn't happen. The WCF Galaxy hated me just like they hate me now. They hurt me, real bad…
But then I met him, Oblivion, The Monster. But where other people saw him and ran in fear, I never did. Not even once. You know why? Because deep behind the mask, and the blood and gore… I saw something no one else saw. Something no else even bothered to try and see.
Deep inside, Oblivion was just like me. He was the peanut butter to my jelly. In many ways I saw him as family, he was like a father figure to me.
See what you have to realize is, deep inside, behind all his anger and frustrations, Oblivion was just a man whose only true desire was to make some friends and maybe even find someone to love him, genuinely care about him. I saw myself in that monster and for that reason I instantly took a liking to him. I cared about him… hell maybe even some part of me even loved him.
Sure I would laugh and joke and play around with him… I’d call him a weak peanut bitch and wind him up a bit… but I did it out of love, not hate. I thought he knew I was joking all those times, I thought he knew how much I adored him… but all he ended up doing was breaking my heart.
Despite it all… after everything we’d been through, I still thought that maybe, just maybe things would one day get better for us. But then I saw it…
Oblivion and Bonnie Blue?!! BONNIE BLUE?!!
That, Oblivion… THAT was going too far. I can handle you trying to kill me, hell I can maybe even handle you raping me… but what I can not, will not and never will tolerate is you befriending HER over me!
ME!!!!!!!!!!!
Kat!!!!!!!
What makes her so special, huh?! What did she ever do for you! Throughout all these years it was me who stood by you… ME!!! I mean sure we had our rough patches where we tried to kill each other… but that was all part of the fun, right? It was all part of the game. We’d laugh, we’d try and kill each other… and then afterwards we’d laugh some more. But not now, Oblivion… not anymore. NOT… ANY… MORE!!!
Befriending that… WITCH is literally the worst thing you could ever do to me, Oblivion and I will not stand for it! I WILL NOT!!! You want to say you’re going to kill me? You want to murder your old friend, Kat?! Let me get make one thing crystal clear for you, Oblivion… I know who you are, I know what you’re capable of and I know that you do not care about me. You never have have you?! But if you think I am going to put a gun in YOUR hand and just wait for you to pull the trigger you can think again, old friend.
This Sunday, Oblivion… you better bring your all. You better bring some knives, some guns, some explosives… BRING YOUR WHORE BONNIE BLUE!!! Because this battle is only just beginning and I guarantee you, Monster… at the end of this night… NEITHER of us will be left standing. You can drag me down to the depths of hell, but I will grab you around your throat… and drag you down with me.
This Sunday might very well be the day Katherine Phoenix dies… but if you think for one minute, one second that I will not take you down with me… you can think again!
But Oblivion, Explosion will not be the end for us… it will only be the beginning and I am soooooo excited to see what the future holds for us both.
See you soon.
