Post by Ryan Blake on Jan 1, 2012 18:00:58 GMT -5
"I don't think they understand the sacrifices that I made
Maybe if they had acted right I would've stayed
But I've already wasted over half of my life I would've
Laid down and died for you I no longer cry for you
No more pain, bitch you took me for granted took my heart and ran it straight into the planet
Into the dirt I can no longer stand it
Now my respect I demand it
I will no longer let you control me
So you better hear me out this much you owe me
I gave up my life for you, totally devoted to you I've stayed
Faithful all the way this is how I fucking get repaid?
I ain't heard you yet not even once say you appreciate me
Ive done my best to give you nothing less than perfectness
And I know that if I end this I'll no longer have nothing left
But you keep treating me like a staircase it's time to fucking step
And I wont be coming back so don't hold your fucking breath
You know what you've done no need to go in depth
I told you, you'd be sorry if I fucking left
Hows it feel now
A special place for you in my heart I have kept
It's unfortunate but it's, too late for the other side
I feel like when I bend over backwards for you all you do is laugh
Cause that ain't good enough you expect me to fold myself in half
Til I snap
I'm moving on forget you oh,
Now I'm special? Oh, I didn't feel special when i was with you
All I ever felt was this
Helplessness
Imprisoned
Chew me up and spit me out
I fell for this so many times
It's ridiculous
And still I stick with this
I'm sick of this but in my sickness and addiction
You're as addictive as they get
Evil as they come vindictive as they make em
My friends keep asking why I can't just walk away from
I'm addicted
To the pain, the stress, the drama
I'm drawn in so I guess imma mess
Cursed and blessed
But this time imma
Ain't changing my mind
I'm climbing out this abyss
You screaming as I walk out that I'll be missed
But when you spoke to people who meant the most to you
You left me off your list
Fuck you, I'm leaving you, my life sentence is served bitch and it's just too late..."
Maybe if they had acted right I would've stayed
But I've already wasted over half of my life I would've
Laid down and died for you I no longer cry for you
No more pain, bitch you took me for granted took my heart and ran it straight into the planet
Into the dirt I can no longer stand it
Now my respect I demand it
I will no longer let you control me
So you better hear me out this much you owe me
I gave up my life for you, totally devoted to you I've stayed
Faithful all the way this is how I fucking get repaid?
I ain't heard you yet not even once say you appreciate me
Ive done my best to give you nothing less than perfectness
And I know that if I end this I'll no longer have nothing left
But you keep treating me like a staircase it's time to fucking step
And I wont be coming back so don't hold your fucking breath
You know what you've done no need to go in depth
I told you, you'd be sorry if I fucking left
Hows it feel now
A special place for you in my heart I have kept
It's unfortunate but it's, too late for the other side
I feel like when I bend over backwards for you all you do is laugh
Cause that ain't good enough you expect me to fold myself in half
Til I snap
I'm moving on forget you oh,
Now I'm special? Oh, I didn't feel special when i was with you
All I ever felt was this
Helplessness
Imprisoned
Chew me up and spit me out
I fell for this so many times
It's ridiculous
And still I stick with this
I'm sick of this but in my sickness and addiction
You're as addictive as they get
Evil as they come vindictive as they make em
My friends keep asking why I can't just walk away from
I'm addicted
To the pain, the stress, the drama
I'm drawn in so I guess imma mess
Cursed and blessed
But this time imma
Ain't changing my mind
I'm climbing out this abyss
You screaming as I walk out that I'll be missed
But when you spoke to people who meant the most to you
You left me off your list
Fuck you, I'm leaving you, my life sentence is served bitch and it's just too late..."
Ryan stands in the center of the ring, the arena is empty. The is a single spot light shining down on his from above. Ryan looks into the camera as it pans and zooms in to a close up.
Ryan: Well here i am, huh. This is it?
He chuckles and just drops his head.
Ryan: This is One. The, One?
He laughs again.
Ryan: And here i am thinking it was going to be such a big deal. It is but, it's just not what i thought it was. I thought it would feel more... special, more exciting. After i just spent my holiday with my family back home, i'm here now again. But while i was home i realized something. This is my job. This is what i do, it's what i survive off of. With out this, my life is nothing but a name. A name that apparently means nothing. Grave digger can have his damn title, and his MS-13 members can keep their guns up their asses.
The Ryan Blake scene fades to black.