Post by Alexander Crain on Oct 26, 2018 16:17:39 GMT -5
Hey guys,
So I am a former roleplayer and member here even though I created a new account. I want to keep my identity a secret for now because I'm not 100% sure that I'm going to start roleplaying again. However, I just finished watching the Haunting of Hill House and it sparked a fire in me and it made me want to write again. So I sat down, wrote what you see below, and now I need feedback on it.
Please feel free to be 100% honest with me and let me know what you think. It's been over five years since I wrote anything so be nice. I think what will help me make my decision is your responses. I'm sure a lot of you have been doing this for a long time so I trust that because who better to talk to and get feedback from that those that have been in the game for so long?
Thanks in advance,
A.C.
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The world isn’t the same as it once was. The place I remember is gone but yet so much of it still remains. I thought that there would never be a place for me out there again and yet here I stand at the precipice looking down. I see them all, walking past one another or side by side as they go about their short pointless lives. I see them and I think to myself how wonderful it must be to live like that. To not know of the evil that lurks in every corner, in every shadow and crevice around them. How dark and lonely it is and how hard it is to escape it no matter how hard you try. In the end, it consumes you. It grabs hold of you and wraps itself around you like vines growing on the wall of your house or a fence until it completely covers them. It’s been that way for me for ages it seems and while I’ve tried to walk away and step out of the darkness forever, it always comes back and sinks it’s claws and teeth in like a lion to its prey.
People will tell you that it’s all in your head and that none of it is real. They’ll dismiss your stories, fears and worries as if they’re nothing more than words just floating in the wind. But I’ve seen the hell that awaits you when you’re in the dark with no one by your side to have your back or help you escape the madness. Sooner or later you come face to face with that madness and it consumes you to the point where you really have no other choice but to give into it. To relish in it. To become it. And when you look at your reflection you no longer see the person you once were because that person is gone and all that is left is a dark empty shell full of evil, rage and an unrelenting need for wanton destruction and death. You slowly begin to enjoy it and become closer with it as you continue on with every second, minute, hour and day that passes. You want more of it and your hunger grows so fast that soon you’ve unleashed a beast that cannot be controlled and whose thirst could drink an ocean.
One day you wake up in that darkness and everything is different. Now you ARE the darkness. Now you ARE that which consumed you, and when that happens, you’re free to do what you want because you are no longer you. Whatever is controlling you or has consumed you to the point where the real you is gone, can now walk among everyone else like a “normal” person. They look at you, walk past you and sometimes smile at you but deep down inside, you’re cold, alone, empty and hungry. Time passes by, people grow old and die yet here you are still walking around in the light while filled with a darkness so deep and so evil that it’s cold to the touch. You feed on the souls of others to find some sort of solace so that you can find a way to live what people consider a normal life but you know there is no normal life. There is no typical Sunday afternoon or a fun filled Friday night. All there is, is darkness, death and hunger. Some have tried to bring whatever is left of me out of the dark and failed. They failed because they don’t understand that there is no escape from it. That there is no going back once you’ve been consumed and become it. That no matter how hard you try, the darkness will take over and whatever you once were will never come back again and you can fight, you can run and you can try to hide, but in the end it’s a futile attempt at avoiding the inevitable. It eventually comes for all of us and those who are weak don’t survive because they are so consumed by their fears that their entire world goes black and they never see anything again. Just darkness. Cold. Alone. Empty. Then there are those of us who eventually give in and relish in it. I don’t know why and I can’t tell you because it’s not something that can be easily explained. But if you wait long enough and want to go on, you’ll be consumed too and will see what I’ve seen for so long. You begin to enjoy it and the more you do, the easier it becomes.
And so here we are in 2018 ready to reveal to the world what has been there since the beginning of time. That which makes the hairs on the back of your neck and your arms stand up. That which consumes your soul and eats away at it. Do you fear it? You should!
People will tell you that it’s all in your head and that none of it is real. They’ll dismiss your stories, fears and worries as if they’re nothing more than words just floating in the wind. But I’ve seen the hell that awaits you when you’re in the dark with no one by your side to have your back or help you escape the madness. Sooner or later you come face to face with that madness and it consumes you to the point where you really have no other choice but to give into it. To relish in it. To become it. And when you look at your reflection you no longer see the person you once were because that person is gone and all that is left is a dark empty shell full of evil, rage and an unrelenting need for wanton destruction and death. You slowly begin to enjoy it and become closer with it as you continue on with every second, minute, hour and day that passes. You want more of it and your hunger grows so fast that soon you’ve unleashed a beast that cannot be controlled and whose thirst could drink an ocean.
One day you wake up in that darkness and everything is different. Now you ARE the darkness. Now you ARE that which consumed you, and when that happens, you’re free to do what you want because you are no longer you. Whatever is controlling you or has consumed you to the point where the real you is gone, can now walk among everyone else like a “normal” person. They look at you, walk past you and sometimes smile at you but deep down inside, you’re cold, alone, empty and hungry. Time passes by, people grow old and die yet here you are still walking around in the light while filled with a darkness so deep and so evil that it’s cold to the touch. You feed on the souls of others to find some sort of solace so that you can find a way to live what people consider a normal life but you know there is no normal life. There is no typical Sunday afternoon or a fun filled Friday night. All there is, is darkness, death and hunger. Some have tried to bring whatever is left of me out of the dark and failed. They failed because they don’t understand that there is no escape from it. That there is no going back once you’ve been consumed and become it. That no matter how hard you try, the darkness will take over and whatever you once were will never come back again and you can fight, you can run and you can try to hide, but in the end it’s a futile attempt at avoiding the inevitable. It eventually comes for all of us and those who are weak don’t survive because they are so consumed by their fears that their entire world goes black and they never see anything again. Just darkness. Cold. Alone. Empty. Then there are those of us who eventually give in and relish in it. I don’t know why and I can’t tell you because it’s not something that can be easily explained. But if you wait long enough and want to go on, you’ll be consumed too and will see what I’ve seen for so long. You begin to enjoy it and the more you do, the easier it becomes.
And so here we are in 2018 ready to reveal to the world what has been there since the beginning of time. That which makes the hairs on the back of your neck and your arms stand up. That which consumes your soul and eats away at it. Do you fear it? You should!