Post by Seth on May 8, 2016 21:27:27 GMT -5
I'm half way between throwing in the towel and just taking a break. If there were any admins left to deal with things I'd be gone but Corey informed me he's done, Price is Price, Gable.. banned himself?.. I don't know. I think that was before I even explained myself!
It isn't a secret that I've gone through phases of being burnt out and not burnt out, but - unless I had little to no choice - I've hung in there. Maybe I didn't express enough thanks to everyone that kept things going when I did have to take breaks!, I don't know. All in all, I love doing this!
But it isn't without sacrifice. Sunday is usually the only day my girlfriend and I both have off, and I basically sacrifice it for WCF. I like watching wrestling!, and I most times I sacrifice paying attention for it to do WCF stuff, tonight included. I've gone into work groggy as fuck Monday mornings because I stayed up trying to get results done or waiting for matches to be submitted.
Which is fine!, it's what I signed up for. And you guys always make sacrifices too. Every now and then people do the silly "thanks Seth!' type posts and I try to downplay it because all in all you guys really always are the heart and backbone of everything!
I'm sorry I didn't realize it sooner, but it seems like most people don't see this as a place worth being in anymore. I'm not going to lie and say that I really understand, because truthfully, I don't, but I'm not sure why I'm going to persist in making everyone miserable. And thanks to my mismanagement?, I guess, there isn't anyone left to hand the fed off to that could do things right.
I said elsewhere that whenever anyone has left, with any part of it being my fault, I've taken it personally, and it's weighed me down - ICE, Bobby, etc. etc., on and on, GD, but I've never felt like continuing wasn't worth doing, until now.
I'm smart enough to realize I'm in the heat of the moment here, and this isn't a "shut up everyone and feel bad for me and stop complaining!" type thing, my sentiment is legitimate: why are we all here if everyone hates this place? Why am I sacrificing hours a week - why are we all sacrificing hours a week - for no reason?
If I could see what I needed to do differently, if I could see anything major enough that I've fucked up - this could be different. But I've somehow alienated everyone without being able to see or understand why. I honestly did my best!, and we've come to a point where that's not enough.
I really hate that this is going to come across as "boo hoo poor me." Before Corey messaged me saying there was drama, I was super excited to get on here and do Slam and stuff, before I knew there were problems. I had no idea.
I'm too weak to post this and not keep replying to shit, but it's only fair to let people know where my head is at. The very least I'd do is take a short break and take volunteers for one final show.
It isn't a secret that I've gone through phases of being burnt out and not burnt out, but - unless I had little to no choice - I've hung in there. Maybe I didn't express enough thanks to everyone that kept things going when I did have to take breaks!, I don't know. All in all, I love doing this!
But it isn't without sacrifice. Sunday is usually the only day my girlfriend and I both have off, and I basically sacrifice it for WCF. I like watching wrestling!, and I most times I sacrifice paying attention for it to do WCF stuff, tonight included. I've gone into work groggy as fuck Monday mornings because I stayed up trying to get results done or waiting for matches to be submitted.
Which is fine!, it's what I signed up for. And you guys always make sacrifices too. Every now and then people do the silly "thanks Seth!' type posts and I try to downplay it because all in all you guys really always are the heart and backbone of everything!
I'm sorry I didn't realize it sooner, but it seems like most people don't see this as a place worth being in anymore. I'm not going to lie and say that I really understand, because truthfully, I don't, but I'm not sure why I'm going to persist in making everyone miserable. And thanks to my mismanagement?, I guess, there isn't anyone left to hand the fed off to that could do things right.
I said elsewhere that whenever anyone has left, with any part of it being my fault, I've taken it personally, and it's weighed me down - ICE, Bobby, etc. etc., on and on, GD, but I've never felt like continuing wasn't worth doing, until now.
I'm smart enough to realize I'm in the heat of the moment here, and this isn't a "shut up everyone and feel bad for me and stop complaining!" type thing, my sentiment is legitimate: why are we all here if everyone hates this place? Why am I sacrificing hours a week - why are we all sacrificing hours a week - for no reason?
If I could see what I needed to do differently, if I could see anything major enough that I've fucked up - this could be different. But I've somehow alienated everyone without being able to see or understand why. I honestly did my best!, and we've come to a point where that's not enough.
I really hate that this is going to come across as "boo hoo poor me." Before Corey messaged me saying there was drama, I was super excited to get on here and do Slam and stuff, before I knew there were problems. I had no idea.
I'm too weak to post this and not keep replying to shit, but it's only fair to let people know where my head is at. The very least I'd do is take a short break and take volunteers for one final show.